Love, Love, Love, Why Are You Like That?

                       This world is full of so many splendid things. Things that just happen unexpectedly. Without a clue or even a bit of expectation, so many things come and go in our lives. One of these is love. As they say, love is the best thing that could ever happen to a person. For me, its not the best thing in life. Love is indeed sweet, it makes us smile but more often, it breaks hearts. 
                        I have been there. I have fallen in love. In fact, I have fallen too deep that I felt more pain than happiness. Yes, at the start it was all going smooth. Love is in the air. You would do anything just to be with the person that you love. You're willing to sacrifice everything, but is she willing to do the same thing? Is she willing to give you her all? For some people who believe in happily ever after, the answer might be yes but for me, its a no. I gave her what I can. I did what I must and what I had to but to no avail. It just eats me up inside. Sometimes, these feelings, this pain might cause you to be afraid to fall again. That, is exactly what's happening to me right now.
                         I had connections with girls that turned out well. Love lasted, love existed but as years passed by, love can never be permanent. Call me bitter, call me negative but I'm just telling you how I feel. This blog post is no longer just for grades for me. Its now my way of expressing how I feel. Its so hard to keep everything inside you know. Love can bring you high. No doubt it can show you happiness. It can take you so high that when you fall back down to Earth, its so hard to stand up again. That's the truth about love for me. Nothing is permanent, and so is love. It might stay but sooner or later, it will fade. Some people thing their love or each other is permanent, especially those who have died loving each other. But let me ask them, if God gave you a longer time, are you sure you would still be there for each other? No one can say right? Love is just so complex. It grows, it changes, it fades. Its just up to you , you will be the one to make a choice of what love is for you.
                        Now, after all the struggles and pain that I got from love, especially now that I just made a big decision, I'm not sure what to do anymore. I'm certain that love will find my way someday but if it does now, I'll turn it down. After the pain, I will need some rest. Everyone needs a break, even from love. I'm just putting something in my mind, "After the rain comes a rainbow". I'll just be holding on here, keep my feet on the ground and as much as possible, avoid the arrows that Stupid Cupid is trying to pierce through my heart. Love, its been a long time. You have been cruel to me huh? Taking me up so high then bringing me back down so hard. Love, why do you have to bring in happiness and then erase and wash it away with pain afterwards? Love, Love, Love, Why are you like that?